He called me and played me the piano the moment when I needed it the most. And at that point, I realized he was the only one who could make me smile. In the past, I had doubted about us, because I did not want, and still don’t, to talk to him about my problems. But he didn’t even have to know. He was the only one that could make me smile, without even knowing I needed him. And right then, I realized that I would always love him.
Words cannot contain the depth of my love, how my feelings for him, even if they have to be suppressed, fill my heart with this eerie feeling, like it’s flying, but also held tight to someone. I feel it being opened, to him, for him, because of him. I feel free, even when my struggles surround me. I feel happy, despite my problems, my insecurities, my weaknesses.
This feeling is so simple, yet so complicated, so intense, but also relaxing, I only want to cry because I feel all the emotions piling up. And I wish he was here, here just so I could look straight into his eyes and hold his hands and be intimate with him, no matter how hard this is for me, or how wrong.
I want him to know. I love him.